Mike here, Noah’s friend/inmate in prison.
Feb 6th, 2020, a day that will forever be cherished.
My granddaughter Jemma was born.
Thank you, Lord, for the good health of both my daughter and granddaughter. When I heard Jemma’s cries on the phone my heart was instantly filled with joy. My daughter Makenzie said, “Dad I wish you could see her, she is beautiful.”
As my heart started to feel heavy with sorrow for missing the birth of another grandchild. My daughter said, ” I wish you were here because then this day would be perfect.” As I started to cry I told her I loved her more than she will ever know.
My daughter went on to express in great detail the beauty of Jemma through her eyes and she is a true blessing from God. It just amazes me on how a day can be filled with so much joy and mixed with such sadness of absence.
I can hear this sadness in my daughter’s voice.
When she speaks on the wishes of me being there. I’m not sure if my daughter realizes it but, that is a true gift in my eyes. Due to the fact she has found it in her heart to forgive me for all the pain I have caused her. She has shown me the true meaning of love through forgiveness.
Makenzie has been touched by God and blessed with His strength. She was so strong through this pregnancy after losing her daughter from her previous pregnancy just two weeks before she was to be born. Another sadness of absence.
This was a very sad day for all of us.
I remember talking to her on the phone and she told me that the doctor could not find the baby’s heartbeat. My heart dropped at that moment. My daughter told me everything is going to be fine but I could hear the fear in her voice.
Her mother, Kara, got on the phone and told me that Kenzie is going to need me more now then she ever has before. I asked Kara what she meant by that.
She said, “Mike the doctors said the baby is gone, she is dead!” She went on to tell me that they are going to induce Kenzie to get the baby out. All I could do at this point in time is cry.
Kara went on to tell me that Kenzie didn’t want to believe what was truly happening. When I got back on the phone with Kenzie she told me not to be sad because she believed that the baby will be just fine when she is born. My heart broke in that moment for my daughter. All I could think about is how much pain she was going to be in.
Her heart truly was broken that day and I felt so helpless. I just wanted to hold my baby girl and take all her pain away but I knew I couldn’t.
I prayed long and hard for God’s comfort to fill Makenzie’s heart and help her through this grieving process. He gave her the strength and then blessed her with another beautiful baby girl, Jemma. We are all blessed to have her in our lives. I told Kenzie on the phone that I am truly grateful for the love she shares with me. I just wish I could find the words to express how she touches my heart daily. How she motivates me to be a better man, father, and grandfather. How she is the one who taught me the true meaning of love and forgiveness.
The one thing I have come to understand about life and love is that it’s the actions of love that touches the heart, not the words.
God, I pray that you guide me in these actions.
Until next time,
Mike
