Is it only in prison when people ask you how much weight have you lost, and then someone tells you you are getting fat, both in the same day?
That’s what it’s like in prison.
People teasing people. All day, everyday. And that negative energy can have a pull on you.
Hey guys, Noah here back again to talk about something we’ve never talked about before… the effect of incarceration and the insecurities it brings out in you. Like actual weight, for example.
Some choose to comment and some choose to keep it to themselves.
But one thing for sure is, everyone is watching.
Routine is our life in here and anything that breaks it up, some think is evil (or it’s a chance to do something differently and then you have that much more judgment against you). If you stick to your routine, you’ll simply fly under everyone’s radar.
Not just weight, but other things inmates obsess over…. and these go for themselves and others around them, as inmates we have a lot of time to think and a lot of time to observe others actions around them.
Some of those things are haircuts or the need for one, eating, sports techniques, workout techniques, the way people talk, prison fashion, tv shows, how you look going to visiting (ironed up and nice boots), the newest shoes and boots, the a/c unit, germ phobia, food, losing weight, gaining weight, the list goes on and on.
In prison, if you have insecurities, they will come out. And if they don’t, just wait, other fellow inmates will find something for you to be insecure about. And soon you’ll be insecure about something.
I would consider myself a fairly secure person. But I still can’t help but be irritated when you hear something negative about yourself regularly.
Just the other day in the TV room they were talking about insecurities on TV, and the guy in front of me turned around and said, Noah, you don’t have any insecurities do you?
So now you can guess where the topic came up and why I’m talking about this today.
And I turned to my buddy who knows my insecurities well and told him to just say it, and he goes, “Hey, Yo, Big Head.”
In prison, there are no boundaries; this is because you can say pretty much anything in here and get away with it. So it only encourages people to continue with the chaos and negativity. On a regular basis.
I guess that’s why my sister keeps saying, I need to surround myself with good energy while I’m in here. I wish I could hear that from her on a regular basis.
From the inside,